Where God Leads Me...

So far, I've talked with some family about my ambitions: To help a single mom and represent the good husbands and men in this world. If not a single mother, then a single woman. This is not about being inadequate, but about love and growing a family spiritually.

There are books such as "The Complete Bible Handbook: An Illustrated Companion" by Professor John Bowker, Ph.D; and The New Layman's Bible Commentary by F.F. Bruce, Howley, and Ellison that support my views on life that I found at the library and was given to my a few years ago when I was a teen by my chemistry teacher.

I took a month last year without Internet access and just meditated on life. My views strengthened on this and I feel that this is where God is leading me.

My spouse and I (we have no kids yet). We've been discussing this for a long time: At first I was looking for one single mom because I felt this strong drive to make myself available to just one special lady and help her and her kids, but my wife wants me to find a woman with no kids and is as young and sexy as we are. I've been searching on the Internet and I even asked my friends and their parents, but I do not know if I am doing the right thing to find "her." We are a young & very sexy couple and my wife tells me that women check me out, but I never notice it..EVER!

I think I make it hard because I do not flirt however, I like to engage in an intellectual discourse with a women, but I never go beyond that. It was a miracle how I meet my wife! Now, I am trying because we are looking for the "other" woman/wife to be an equal partner as her. (1) There is nothing inadequate about my wife. (2) She supports me making myself available to only one more. (3) It is more advantageous for us both spiritually and economically. (4) The Bible says, "Two is better than one and a three-fold core is harder to break." So: I am interested in a woman who believes in polygamy, and wants to be shown true love and the love that Christ has given to us. The reason why I say this is because the Bible teaches the husband to love his wife just like Christ has loved us and died for us. I also feel that I should stand up against dead beat dads and husbands by making myself available to one special woman.